Il luogo dove dissolvo i miei conflitti interiori: io non sono soltanto il mio Ego. Depressione
I have a few opinions about myself, of how I should be, how I’d love to be, or maybe how I am. I can’t really define myself, but on some occasion, I can clearly see that part of me that I call my Ego and its double. This series represents my two intimate selves meeting: the two people are both self-portraits. Those are expressions of my Ego. The first is the socially correct self: afraid of others’ judgment, it absolutely doesn’t want to show alterations in its state of mind and minimizes its emotions. In my photo it faces a second expression of my Ego, its counterpart represented by a strong emotion that is kept alive by a hidden and continuous thought. Paradoxically the former won’t survive without the latter. I live in a strong inner conflict until they don’t meet, often not knowing it. When I allow the antagonistic selves to encounter, I am firstly frightened from the dreadful clash that inevitably happens, then I slowly accept my inadequacy and fragility.
Being the photographer behind the camera and the two characters at the same time allows me to represent the inner space where this encounter happens in the material world, a place that does not belong to it but still existent and real. This space is the place where I dissolve my inner conflicts.